Howdy ^^... just been thinking how I say a hell of alot but I never talk about anything important, I mean I talk to my friends about such complex and odd things as Politics and the whole general mish mash of things happening but I never talk about me lol. Im Steve not Stephen, I listen alot to everyone (well try not too in filth street) and generally steer clear about talking about myself which sucks majorly... Hell I hardly tell anyone what Ive done in University throughout the whole year cept for little snipits in the taxi home from a night out, even though the years been one of the greatest if not the greatest so far. I really need to start talking but not even many of my mates do either... I mean I dont know much about them either truthfully... seem to be in a group of strangers that have a good time and except each other as misfits but meh... maybe im going crazy and talking bollox.. I am writing this at the point of the night or morning rather were you over analyse everything and draw up twisted conclusions... like I said Im steve and not many of them know me too well... not really... Its all getting rather bothersome actually... im getting bored, restless and a tad indrawn and I seriously need to go on this holiday and 'chill-lax'. Anything bothers me I just shrug it off generally, not much does bother Steve actually, Stephen on the other hand gets majorly disturbed and irritated. Hell i dont know what im even talking about anymore... just getting a tad annouyed guess after talking too a friend. Maybe im always getting restless cause I just got to go and do something different, something else and brake out of this habit of being around people and friends but not interacting really and becoming more 'Steve' towards everything... hell that doesnt even make too much senece to me reading back... well most of it does... ahh to hell with it...

I have pretty strong views on certain things, while on others im pretty fickle... talking to Starky in the 'Chip shop come Kebab Place' weve claimed as our own after a night out with the usual people and got thinking about some pretty nasty stuff. Got into the realms of an 'eye for an eye' and such...
whats reasonabe justifed and right?... well its all pretty much goes out the window when it comes to peoples perspectives thinking about it... This wont make senece to many because you werent there and I cant be bothered outlinging the argument... suffice to say my perception is my reality, anyone elses... not my problem. Yes once more doesnt make sence but also again cause im lazy and cant be bothered outlining the argument ^^. Someone hurts me I hit back, someone angers me if there below contempt and i dont value there input I let it slide, if its someone I respect I'll argue sure... and IM blabbering now.... guess all this goes to show one thing... dont type early in the morning when you should be in bed...^^

I need a vacation... a few months in the tibetan hills sitting with some crazy monks should do it methinks ^^...